It’s like my heart is exploding in my chest.

Like, it’s a physical pain. The tears come uncontrollably, I feel the shiver and pang of realization.
A cold snake slithers down my back, into my stomach.

This can’t be real. I can’t feel like this.
But I do. I am the worst thing to walk the earth. I love the impossible, torturing myself with emotional flagellation. My spirits are crushed.

I mean nothing to her. She still loves him, and she will never see me.
And you’ve strung yourself out in some desperate attempt to mean something to her. You’re a fucking idiot.

You are alone.

She doesn’t love you, Chris.
Wake up.

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